War children is just a shot away. Love sister is just a kiss away.

Good morning people. Did y'all have a good weekend? I can't say I enjoyed myself too much, I was studying math, or should I say staring at the book trying to decode whatever the fuck the book says. I'm not sure it's even in my language to be fair. Why can't it be easy? Why can't I sleep with the book under my pillow and it just copies into my head? That would be nice huh? Honestly I try SO hard and I'm just no good at it. I get so frustrated. Why on earth am I being forced to do it if I just can't? Because you're smart enough, because I believe in you, because you can do it. Yes. I can but the ammount of frustration and hair tearing anger and literal blood sweat and tears that I have to endure to actually do it...why would I want that much stress? Christ.

Right. Enough about that. There's other more important things to talk about. Important to me at least. I've been a big fan of photography since as long as I can remember. I was particulary fascinated by old portrait photography. Black and white. I love cemetary shots, all dark and misterious. I love those huge angels but unfortunally I was not blessed with having them on any cemetary near by. Maybe they're tacky, I get it but to be fair cemetaries in Paris and New Orleans are stunningly beautiful with them. As beautiful as a cemetary can be at least. So anyways, a while back I found a whole box of old photographs, London, Greece, Beirut...they were taken by my aunt sometime in the 60's. I'm not excatly sure what she used. Could be a little box type thing called Lubitel which if I understood corectly was a low budget and low quality camera, I still have it, it's rather cute but I'm not sure if it works. The films are a bitch to get. Though I believe these photographs were shot with an old Leica my grandfather used to own. That one I don't have. Unfortunally. I heard it got destroyed. How or when I don't know but it's a damn shame. If nothing else it's a nice decoration hah. I have a couple old cameras in my office on the shelve as decoration. They are in semi working condition meaning there's nothing really wrong with them and they could be fixed. It's actually a project of mine to get them fixed someday. I mean new DLSR's are amazing but the thing that bothers me is they lack true meaning of photography. The thing basically does the picture for you and photoshops it and god knows what else. That's why I prefer film photography, those photographers had to capture the moment, no help, no photoshop, no nothing. If they lost it it was lost, nobody could zoom it in or blur it out or enhance the colors. I love Eddie Adams and Henri Cartier Bresson, and the photographers of the Bang bang club. They didn't just take pictures, they told stories and I think that's pretty damn amazing. What I'm trying to say is with these stupid smart phones with build in cameras better resolution then most cameras back in the day photography totally lost it's value, it's soul and meaning. People are so consumed with themselves and their damn selfies it's completly absurd. What I love about photography is this...

These are over 50 years old and they are absolutely amazing. Sharp, beautiful, alive. And then you go over to any ''modern'' photography website and you're just...disappointed. Specially artistic nude. Yeah that one is always fun. I don't think these ''artists'' understand the difference between artistic nude and porn. If you take a crap quality, porly lit picture of your dick that aint no god damn artistic nude photography, that's you being a fucking idiot. Don't know why you're even taking pictures it aint nothing to write home about.

Either way, I should get back to math problems, the x won't find itself, though seriously, an x is an x for a reason, move on already. Hah. Ignore me I'm probably delusional from all the hair pulling I'm going to be doing over this. Here's some music for this monday...

This is my favorite Rolling Stones record. They have a ton of music yeah but this one is my absolute favorite. Gimme Shelter and You can't always get what you want are my top favorite songs. This is a remastered version and it is absolutely amazing. You can hear fingers on the strings, every little sound and note and the music itself. Jesus christ. Mindblowing. I think this is the record that got me into listening to some blues. I'm not particulary fond of it but sometimes it's a nice change to everything else I believe. Either way I feel like this record was the one where they really took a stand. You know what I mean? Jagger and Richards really put down the sound they wanted and it worked. They have this special, unique sound which is unlike anything else and I feel like this is where it really came through. They're the best as is and to be honest if you don't have this album you need to get it. For you, for your friends, for your family, because guess what? We all need someone we can lean on ;)