In the still of the night I feel my heart beating heavy telling me I gotta have more...

''In the shadow of night I see the full moon rise telling me what's in store. My heart start aching, my body start a shaking and I can't take no more, no.''

What did I do this week? Study. Did anything stay in my head? No, not really. It is highly frustrating because I try so hard and it's just not working out. Oh well you know what Nikki Sixx and the boys would say ''Rise, pull yourself together''. This shit aint taking me down. I refuse. So I'm going to do it somehow even if I end up bald in the process...hah...what else did I do? Curse everyone and everything because it was fucking snowing. Alright maybe snow in late April is not SO unusual. But are you fucking kidding me? I don't want snow in December and January much less in April. The fuck is that shit about? Ah well it is what it is. I am so not in the mood for anything today, my throat is killing me and I have about 10 things that need to be done. Damnit. I just want to roll over in bed and sleep for a few more hours. It's just a sore throat because I'm an idiot and I drink ice cold drinks but I feel like I was run over by a truck. It fucking sucks let me tell you that. Alright what else? I don't want to be listing all my troubles I complain too much as is. Hah. Here's the deal I finally and I do mean FINALLY saw the Batman vs Superman movie. What took me so long? God knows, I was busy. But holy hell is it amazing! I loved it and then I hated it and then I loved it again. Lois and Clark are so cute together and baby Lex jesus what a psycho. Not that I'm surprised.

This right here was my fav scene...

Wonder woman is amazing and I'm glad she's in the movie, though you know if the movie industry wasn't so bloody sexist I would love for her to have her own movie. If Thor can be a woman why couldn't she have her own movie? Either way it's amazing, the way it's made, the story, the effects. So bloody perfect. I hated the ending though and I'll hate it so much more if there's no part two in the future. But yeah if you're into these kinds of movies, go see it you won't regret it. Also theres a brief premiere of the Aquaman that's going to be in a solo movie played by my Hawaiian Jesus or you know Jason Momoa. He is just...you know...oh my god! Safe to say that movie got me all excited. Hah.

Here's the deal I finished two portraits this week. I wish I could say I was good and did it but really I only did it because I was doing just about anything to avoid studying. I know digging my own grave but I guess I have trouble concentrating. Even the blank wall in front of me looks more interesting. I wish I was joking but I'm really not. Heh.

Here's a portrait of Prince. Kinda like a tribute piece. I'm sick of those, I drew too many lately. Someone needs to stop taking my musicians or else...this took me about 18 hours all together to complete. I probably spent 3 hours on the eyes alone. Ha. I used classic Faber castells which I gotta say lately really disappoint me. They keep breaking. I doubt there's anything more frustrating then when you're drawing a line and the tip breaks and fucks up your drawing. I hate that so much! I also used a technical pencil and Koh I Noor graphite pencils from B to B7 and a white ball point pen. And then there's this...

Superman. Obviously. Now before you start bitching at me that it doesn't look like Henry Cavill let me point out that it wasn't my goal to make him look like Henry, obviously the reference was a picture of him that's why they're alike but I kinda went on my own with the hair and mouth and the shading. Mixed media on paper. I used color pencils, graphite pencils, markers, white and black pens and a technical pencil. Took about 9 hours to get it done.

So that's all from me today. If you're free this weekend plus monday then enjoy it if not I'm sorry. Happy friday, stay safe guys.

P.S. this beautiful babe came out today, make sure you check it out. It's amazing, the boys did an amazing job. Go and support them.

''Now I just wanna get close to you an' taste your love so sweet and I just wanna make love to you, feel your body heat.''

It's like an avalanche I feel myself go under.

Friday, 24th of April 1981. That makes it 35 years ago yesterday. You know what happened on that day? Motley Crue played their first ever show. Well actually they were opening for someone else in a venue Nikki worked at and begged his boss to let him do it. Thank god he did right? And I mean that first show was chaos. They never played a full show before, the crowd was flipping them off, some jackass spat on Vince which you know ended SO well that Vince leaped off stage on him and probably beat the shit outta him and then Nikki joined him whacking someone with his bass...It's a miracle they managed to play some songs in between all of this. But you know the chaos payed off because this was the begining of an amazing career. But lets not go there right now. I miss them like crazy. If I start writing about them I'll be a crying mess by the time this blog post comes to an end.

I was just going trough the list of greatest rock albums from the 80's and realized I need to update my wish list like a lot. Heh. Which by the brings us to why the hell my store doesn't have any music. I'm a proper idiot to be fair. Of course they can't have records, they only have new records and what I'm looking for are all old albums that weren't re issued. I'm an idiot. Really. I need a second hand shop or some shit. Well done Nikki you only needed a year to figure this out. Hah.

So while we're on this subject I obviously don't own much new music. I don't have that many cd's I mostly listen to vinyl or iTunes and to be fair I think this record is the only ''modern'' band that I actually have a record from. Heh.

I used to listen to A LOT of heavier stuff, death core, death metal, ''screamo'' as people called it. I still do actually, just not as much as I used to. Anyways I liked the old Bring me the horizon but I feel like with this record they really found their place. I love that they changed from their original sound and grew as artists. I love Oli's voice so much more here. He is such a great singer when he stops with all the violent screaming. I love the lyrics they're so honest on all the songs, I can relate to a lot of them. And I am so proud of Oliver, he came a long way. He opened up about his drug addiction, he got better, they made this perfect fucking album, really I am so proud of them. When Sempiternal came out which by the way is like the most under rated album out there you could see they're going into a new direction. And I was still a little surprised and taken back with this one. But in a good way mind you or the best way because it's absolutely amazing. There's not a song on it that I wouldn't like. I love them all. There's no filler, there's no dull moment. The entire record is a wild ride and it's fucking adictive I tell you that. 11 songs of pure listening pleasure. Ear orgasms if you will. Though I hate picking favorites I gotta say I enjoy Happy song, Throne, Follow you and Avalanche most. This record also comes with a copy on CD which is so cool because you know car music. Heh. Either way I loved it, it's ambitious, grand, emotional, fresh, fast, heavy and complex, it’s a record that demands the band be seen in a new, different light. If you are one of those stubborn fans saying you can't listen to the band now, shut the fuck up sit down and listen to it. Give it a chance without previous judgment and just enjoy it. I find it so stupid when fans say ''they sold out'', ''they changed'' blah blah blah. Like Adam is nothing like Freddie. Newsflash Freddie wrote a song called ''The show must go on'', he wanted the band to go on. And Adam never claimed to be Freddie, he admires him, he wants to do right by him but he knows he's no Freddie. So people saying they can't listen to Queen anymore because Adam sounds nothing like Freddie are idiots, Adam is an amazing singer, you need to give him a shot and then judge. I'm getting off topic here, point is ''That's the spirit'' is amazing, you'll enjoy it. If you're into rock, metal, heavier stuff then you'll love it. I believe it's one of the best albums in this music genre made in a long while. So please humor me, give it a chance. If you're a fan already well then you know this one is a great choice.

I'm going to put it on and play it now while sobbing into my math book. Yeah, I'm still there. And over the weather. It's actually snowing not so far away from me. What the fuck is that about? And then a bit more over Walking dead. Guys, you understand right? That clif hanger will kill me, how the fuck am I supposed to wait till October??? Fucking insanity. So yeah, happy monday. As happy as it can be at least. Enjoy your day, week and Game of Thrones premiere. But don't tell me shit I'm not on the last season yet. Cheers see you friday!

I only want to see you in the purple rain.

I never meant to cause you any sorrow I never meant to cause you any pain I only wanted one time to see you laughing I only want to see you laughing in the purple rain.

Can I use the word heartbroken? Because I am. I am shocked. I am sad. I am broken. We lost Bowie, we lost Lemm, we lost Frey...Now Prince as well. I was so determined to make 2016 better for myself then 2015 was. But how can you be better and happier when this is happening. I mean Prince was not just a musician he was PRINCE. I remember the first time I played his Purple rain vinyl. I remember listening to Purple rain and all the hairs on my body were up. There's not a song out there that could compare to this song. It is amazing. I stood still, staring, mouth open...he was a musical genious. Something absolutely special. I never got the chance to see him live, I always wanted to though, I imagined how awesome it would be, hearing Purple rain live and all those purple papers flying from the ceiling...yeah, feels like a dream. My heart hurts not only knowing we lost him but also knowing this dream has been taken away from me. He wrote some sexy, kinky music and there wont ever be another one like him. I'm going to pour myself some whiskey and play the shit outta my favorite Prince record. Here's to you sweet Prince, I hope you and Bowie raise some hell up there. We're going to miss you like hell. Then again it is starting to look a lot like hell down here. Rest in purple.

I never wanted to be your weekend lover I only wanted to be some kind of friend, baby I could never steal you from another, tt's such a shame our friendship had to end...

War children is just a shot away. Love sister is just a kiss away.

Good morning people. Did y'all have a good weekend? I can't say I enjoyed myself too much, I was studying math, or should I say staring at the book trying to decode whatever the fuck the book says. I'm not sure it's even in my language to be fair. Why can't it be easy? Why can't I sleep with the book under my pillow and it just copies into my head? That would be nice huh? Honestly I try SO hard and I'm just no good at it. I get so frustrated. Why on earth am I being forced to do it if I just can't? Because you're smart enough, because I believe in you, because you can do it. Yes. I can but the ammount of frustration and hair tearing anger and literal blood sweat and tears that I have to endure to actually do it...why would I want that much stress? Christ.

Right. Enough about that. There's other more important things to talk about. Important to me at least. I've been a big fan of photography since as long as I can remember. I was particulary fascinated by old portrait photography. Black and white. I love cemetary shots, all dark and misterious. I love those huge angels but unfortunally I was not blessed with having them on any cemetary near by. Maybe they're tacky, I get it but to be fair cemetaries in Paris and New Orleans are stunningly beautiful with them. As beautiful as a cemetary can be at least. So anyways, a while back I found a whole box of old photographs, London, Greece, Beirut...they were taken by my aunt sometime in the 60's. I'm not excatly sure what she used. Could be a little box type thing called Lubitel which if I understood corectly was a low budget and low quality camera, I still have it, it's rather cute but I'm not sure if it works. The films are a bitch to get. Though I believe these photographs were shot with an old Leica my grandfather used to own. That one I don't have. Unfortunally. I heard it got destroyed. How or when I don't know but it's a damn shame. If nothing else it's a nice decoration hah. I have a couple old cameras in my office on the shelve as decoration. They are in semi working condition meaning there's nothing really wrong with them and they could be fixed. It's actually a project of mine to get them fixed someday. I mean new DLSR's are amazing but the thing that bothers me is they lack true meaning of photography. The thing basically does the picture for you and photoshops it and god knows what else. That's why I prefer film photography, those photographers had to capture the moment, no help, no photoshop, no nothing. If they lost it it was lost, nobody could zoom it in or blur it out or enhance the colors. I love Eddie Adams and Henri Cartier Bresson, and the photographers of the Bang bang club. They didn't just take pictures, they told stories and I think that's pretty damn amazing. What I'm trying to say is with these stupid smart phones with build in cameras better resolution then most cameras back in the day photography totally lost it's value, it's soul and meaning. People are so consumed with themselves and their damn selfies it's completly absurd. What I love about photography is this...

These are over 50 years old and they are absolutely amazing. Sharp, beautiful, alive. And then you go over to any ''modern'' photography website and you're just...disappointed. Specially artistic nude. Yeah that one is always fun. I don't think these ''artists'' understand the difference between artistic nude and porn. If you take a crap quality, porly lit picture of your dick that aint no god damn artistic nude photography, that's you being a fucking idiot. Don't know why you're even taking pictures it aint nothing to write home about.

Either way, I should get back to math problems, the x won't find itself, though seriously, an x is an x for a reason, move on already. Hah. Ignore me I'm probably delusional from all the hair pulling I'm going to be doing over this. Here's some music for this monday...

This is my favorite Rolling Stones record. They have a ton of music yeah but this one is my absolute favorite. Gimme Shelter and You can't always get what you want are my top favorite songs. This is a remastered version and it is absolutely amazing. You can hear fingers on the strings, every little sound and note and the music itself. Jesus christ. Mindblowing. I think this is the record that got me into listening to some blues. I'm not particulary fond of it but sometimes it's a nice change to everything else I believe. Either way I feel like this record was the one where they really took a stand. You know what I mean? Jagger and Richards really put down the sound they wanted and it worked. They have this special, unique sound which is unlike anything else and I feel like this is where it really came through. They're the best as is and to be honest if you don't have this album you need to get it. For you, for your friends, for your family, because guess what? We all need someone we can lean on ;)

I'm fading into the night.

The lights go down in another town, there's a music echo through the night. Another stage, another sold out crowd, something just don't feel right. I get so lonely here sometimes, wishing you were here tonight. I'll be fading into the night, maybe this time we'll finally get it right. I can't explain it, I won't even try, with a little faith we'll finally get it right.

How can I miss things I never had? Things I never knew, things that were never mine to begin with? How can I crave something I don't know? How can I miss something I have no right to miss? How can I miss people who done nothing but hurt me? How sadistic do I have to be to miss those people? Maybe because they made me believe they care. I feel like in some stupid teenage soap opera lying in the middle of my bed staring at the wall, listening to the sappiest rock ballads my iPod can produce. See the thing is I know I'm better off without them, and I know I'm happier, most days at least, but sometimes I miss certain things. And don't ask me what those are because I couldn't give you an anwser, something is just missing I suppose. And I'm afraid, afraid I'll forget. I don't want to forget things, though sometimes I may wrack my brain and still can't remember...how someone's voice sounds, their laugh, a smile maybe and I hate myself for it...

Jesus I went dark again. What did y'all do this week? I was lazy. I got nothing done. I'll hit myself on the head some other time for it. I needed a little breather. We should all take some more time for ourselves to be fair. So many tense and stressed out people, it aint helping no one not you and not the people around you. Remember to stop, slow down, take a deep breath. It's going to be alright.

What I did get done was get a new phone and nearly lost my mind while downloading all the apps and contacts into the new one. Why do they have to keep updating phones? I don't even want a new one every two years. I want one good one for good. Is that too damn much to ask for? Now this new one...it's amazing not going to lie, but why on earth would a need a phone that turns into a remote? Or wants to work out with me? Come on be serious all the work out I do is running my fingers over the keyboard. And all the options and reminders and ''making my life easy'' thingys. I mean no wonder people are so damn dumb if their phones think instead of them. And to think all that and it still doesn't have an option that would cancel a text while sending it. Now that's too much...or solar cells on the back so when the battery is dead it recharges itself. That's also too much huh?

And I also changed my hair color a bit. And I was going for purple but it ended up being red. I love it either way but my stubborn hair really knows how to piss me the fuck off. Though it's a good thing that at least for once all of my hair is the same color. Usually it was about 2 - 3 colors but at the moment it looks perfect. You know what I love though? The conditioners that you get with hair dye, it makes your hair so soft and shiny...

So, my boys from Simple plan posted a new video on tuesday called ''Singing in the rain'' make sure you check it out because it's absolutely perfect! Then again everything they do is perfect. Hah. And enjoy your weekend guys, there's probably a sugar coma from all the ice cream for me and binge watching Game of thrones. And probably comfort from not being able to solve one single math problem in my book. What the fuck? Seriously they might as well be Korean or Chinese because I just don't get it. I better go, take care of one another guys stay safe, see ya monday.

Staying up all night, we're cheating time, talking about our hopes and our dreams. When you wake up, I'll be gone, just a memory. I get so crazy here sometimes, you can't tell the days from nights. I'll be fading into the night, maybe this time we'll finally get it right.

Just take this song, and you'll never feel left all alone.

I'm just a thorn in your side the disrespect in your eye, I can't control myself. I'm like the snake in your drain I'm taking over your brain, cause I can't help myself. Every time I turn my head I can hear everything that said I know they wish I'd go away...

Here I am again, hey now, hey now, I'm the Mother Fucker Of The Year.

Call me the jackal in heat, the blackest cat on the street, you better watch yourself. A hand grenade with no pin, a razor blade going in, I'm going straight to hell. Every time I turn my head I can hear everything that said I know they wish I'd go away...

I had one of those dreams tonight. You know the ones that are so realistic you spend half an hour in the morning thinking what the fuck happened. Let's not go into details...hot, sexy, sweaty details...those are probably not for everyone's eyes hah but it was insane. Seriously. I woke up staring at my ceiling, grinning like a fool till it hit me ''you were just dreaming, you idiot''. Oh well it was still perfect. I never knew that dreams can be so...vivid. Crazy. Anyways, did y'all enjoy your weekend? Mine was pretty...relaxed. As much as it could be between work and the fangirling that is my daily life lately with all these Guns N' Roses videos and pictures. I had forgot to breathe a couple of times in the process. Speaking of, there's someone who once told me he doesn't understand me. How can I get so involved. It's just music he said. Just background noise. EXCUSE YOU?! I think about what Lemmy would tell him and it wouldn't be nice. Hah. Seriously if music makes you feel nothing then you listen to the wrong kind or there is something very wrong with you my friend. Are there actually people out there who see music as ''noise''? For me it goes through my entire body, into my bones, courses through my blood, makes my hairs stand up, gives me goose bumps, the sweaty hot loud venues are home. I couldn't be happier anywhere and nothing could make me feel more alive. There's nothing that would give me an instant smile or make me feel as safe and happy as my favorite bands do. Are there really people out there who don't understand - have that? I don't see myself as the weird one ''this is my music I love it loud'' as Kiss would say there's no changing me it's who I am. But I do feel sorry for them. Being a part of a fandom a ''family'' is amazing, having something you can be as devoted to is amazing. Music is amazing because when it hits you, you feel no pain. I could never really explain the feeling. You have to feel it to understand it. Point I'm trying to make is that I just really don't understand people sometimes. And it wouldn't be an issue because I smile and turn away but they...they feel it's their place to slander, talk shit, offend, get rude towards me for something I like. Now listen to me bitch, I am not here to please the ignorant. I will not apologize for liking what I like. You don't like my favorite band, that's completly okay, you don't have to. But what you do have to is show respect. Do you really think you have ANY right to come up to me and talk shit about them? You think you have any right to slander them on my social media accounts? What the fuck did you think will happen? That I'll smile and play along? Well sugar then you just don't know me. I'm not the type to do that. I protect what I love and I have zero tolerance for bullshit. So please in the future...stay on your sites, post as much hate and bullshit you like but keep it away from me or there will be hell to pay. You will burn under my wrath. I promise you that much.

Alright. Record time. I'm posting these in no particular order by the way....

We all know the story about Theatre don't we? Or the recording process? Yeah I'm not a fan of that. But have you ever took a moment to actually think about something...Nikki is a god damn genius. All the lyrics are written by him. And I think that is absolutely amazing. Some people think lyrics are not important *coughidiotscough* but to me a song needs a story, I can't listen to songs about butts and say it's a good song. Again, what is the matter with people?? Alright so Theatre is supposed to be Crue's ''weakest album''. My grandmother once said Vince sounds like a tortured cat on it. You can imagine how happy I was about that. Though...I mean, it came after Shout, the band was absolutely fucked from touring, from partying, from drugs and alcohol and it shows. I suppose the album is decent enough, more radio friendly? Idk maybe I'm not so fond of it because of the back story? Nikki's excessive heroin abuse, Vince's drinking...It might have put Crue on the top of the charts but I just don't feel what I feel with Girls or Feelgood. Home sweet home is amazing. Love the video too. Smoking in the boys room is an awesome cover. Louder Than Hell, City Boy Blues, Use it or lose it are my favorites others might as well be described as fillers. They're good but they're not what they could be. You know what I mean? But then again after the perfection that is Shout and being haunted by so many demons at once it's no wonder it's not perfect. Maybe it's missing that Crue sound this one feels too ''pop''. Either way still amazing job on the drums, on the guitar, the bass, the lyrics, the vocals. All of it is great. Nowhere as near as good as Feelgood but great non the less. If you're a Crue fan you'll enjoy it either way, if not then I'd suggest you go with the Doctor first and then we'll talk.

Save our souls for the heavens, for a life so good it sure feels bad, save our souls for the heavens, save our souls for the promised land.

Maybe you'll find somebody who will love you half as much as me.

I've been sitting here staring at the blank screen thinking what the fuck to write for about an hour now. Then it hit me. I have nothing to say, my mind is completly blank. Which considering this blog is supposed to be about things I love and things that inspire me is pretty damn sad. Today is just a weird day I suppose. If one little thing goes wrong it sometimes feels like everything is wrong. You know what I mean? Actually, no, I hope you don't know. Nobody should feel as awful as I do right now. Specially because I don't have a single good reason for it. BUT! No complaining, I'll share some shit with you guys. Here's something I'm working on...

This is actually a Jimi Hendrix work in progress. I love him. Fucking guitar god. Voodoo child is the shit. But the drawing itself is kicking my ass bad. Not a racist thing but holy hell drawing dark colored skin has proven to be difficult. I am a bit lost when it comes to shading as well as the hair but oh well it's a challenge and I love those. Gonna put on some music and get lost in the drawing. The weather outside is too fucking depressing anyways. Let me share some with you, yeah?

This last video and all the rest shot at this concert are the reason why I don't sleep at night. Jesus fucking christ can ya get any more perfect? Tomorrow when youtube is flooded by videos from the Vegas concert tonight I'm going to be sobbing in the corner of my bed. Yeah. Pretty much. Maybe with a box of mint chocolate ice cream because why the fuck not. Alright Hendrix is waiting for me as are the rest of half drawn drawings. Finishing this off with a couple pictures I took recently.

The message of that last one is pretty damn strong. And a damn shame most people don't even realize it.

Enjoy your weekend guys though I bet your plans can't beat mine. Supernatural, Game of Thrones in bed with my cats and ice cream. What more can a person ask for? Hah. Enjoy!

Honey you're all I need.

What would you say it's the most romantic thing someone ever did for you? I used to say my life won't be complete untill I'm on an airport getting ready to leave and someone chases me down the entire exit avoiding security begging me not to go. Hah. How silly of me right? It would be nice though. We all want to be wanted and needed not just loved. Though I have this theory that men have to be loved while women have to be wanted. But at the end of the day what are romantic gestures anyways? I bet we all see them differently depending on what we like, who we love, what we want in life. A good relationship doesn't have to be expensive or sappy as fuck, it doesn't need expensive ''show offs'' or excessiveness. I mean a romantic gesture can be a tiny thing like closing a drawer you always keep open and you know it drives your partner half mad. I mean I don't believe in big presents, I believe that love is in the details, the small things you do for someone you love, the small little parts of someone you love. Little details that makes that person unique. To me romance is holding hands if you're in a crowded place, or them putting their arm around your waist. Romance is when we fight and he leaves me a note saying ''break my heart why don't you'' letting me know he's sorry and not upset with me one bit. Romance is them preparing you a hot bath after a hard day without making it lead to more. Romance is them spending time with you getting into your hobbies or maybe a tv show or a band they don't even like but they do it because you enjoy it. Romance is always remembering to kiss them goodnight or goodbye. Romance is cuddling up on the couch watching movies together, switching off the phones ignoring the outside world. That is romance to me, I don't care about no candle light dinners or fancy dresses or fancy restaurants, I like things simple and spontaneous. So the most romantic thing I can say that happened to me...well recently at least...I was really upset about something this weekend it kept me up all night so I was outside watching the sky. Sometimes when there's a really clear night you can see the stars so beautifully from where I am. This is probably what I love most about a country sky, you can never see so many stars in the city. So anyways it was around four in the morning and I was laying on the hood of the car staring up at the sky I didn't even hear him when he came outside and told me I'm going to freeze if I don't get inside. Not that I was bothered by the cold I was angry and upset so I hear him sigh and leave partly hoping he'd leave me alone and partly disappointed that he walked away. Not for long though, he just went to the garage and put on a record, I heard the music and it literally made me laugh out loud then he comes out and asks me to dance with him, in the middle of the street under the stars at four am to take my mind off the things that worry me. It was actually quite perfect. Little gesture but it meant the world to me. Though maybe the song wasn't particulary perfect he said he should put on ''Without you'' but he only had ''You're all I need'' all my Crueheads know why this is not the perfect song and why I asked him not to stab, strangle or shoot me after right? Heh. Well obviously he didn't, he just laughed and carried me back inside and off to bed. And this is excatly what I meant I don't care about no presents a small spontaneous gesture like this is better then any present. So, I take it you've guessed which record I'm about to post today?

Y'all know Crue are one of my top favorites as is right? Dr. Feelgood is one of my favorite albums I've already expressed why and I gotta say I was not too impressed by Theatre of pain so the fact that they bounced back with this one...well that makes me happiest. I kinda get the Aerosmith vibe with Girls girls girls and I feel like that's the sound that really fits them perfectly. I mean hello the album starts with a bang. Wild side? It's fucking amazing and also the name I decided to give this blog as you may very well noticed. It's heavy it's strong it's powerful, fast, catchy, amazing lyrics I just love it. Then it goes into the smash hit I think every person on this planet with a dick heard at least once in their life. Come on it's basically an ode to strippers. Hah. No but seriously I love that song so much I could probably listen to it on reply all the damn time. I mean I love this album so much because I feel like with it they left the glam metal behind for Poison and Warrant and others *not that it's anything wrong with glam metal because I totally love it mind you* and went back to their bad boy image which we all know fits them best. I love ''All in the name of...'' I mean it's awesome, it's dirty, it's kinky, I love it. And then we come to ''You're all I need'' love, murder, if I can't have you no one will kinda thing? I feel like this is a type of dark humor only Alice Cooper would really understand. And then Jailhouse Rock, I mean maybe it's on it to fill the record maybe it isn't I really don't care because it's fucking amazing, I never saw Crue before, like in the 80's, obviously, but from what I did see I feel like this live version really captures the energy of a Crue concert and who doesn't love an Elvis classic? I mean he is the King after all. These are my favorites off this record, others are good but maybe they just get lost, forgotten amongst other songs. Which isn't fair, singles aren't always the best songs. I've got so many albums from which I enjoy other songs that were never singles so much more. Anyways it's a really good album and I love listening to it from start to finish. On an iPod heh since you can't really skip around on vinyl anyways. Though there's no comparison an iPod or vinyl. The sound on a record is about a million times better. So, give it a chance, listen to it, you'll love it I promise.

Alright kids hope you recovered from either that Guns N' Roses surprise concert *I haven't, lord knows I'm half dead because of it* or the Walking dead finale. How fucking dare they??? Whichever one was it, I wish you a pleasant week. See y'all on Friday.

Cheers!

Oh, a spider, save me Jon Snow!

What did I do this week? A big mistake that's what. Finally decided to get into Game of Thrones. Those of you who already watch it know what I did and those of you who don't, well like me before, you don't know what you're missing out on. Not only is it really good but it's just fueling my Kit Harington obsession even more...I mean I was already all over him since I saw him in Pompeii and the Seventh son but now...Jon Snow...holy fuck. That man is just so attractive. First time I went for the darkhaired one too. Usually I'd just get glued to the blonde one. But he's a sleaze ball. Besides y'all know I have a thing for British men...

Hah. Good job Nikki all you do is complain about your favorite characters dying in all your shows, sometimes not just once...god damn Supernatural...and then you go and watch Game of Thrones instead. Well done. I'm going to regret this aren't I? Oh well, what's done is done.

Have y'all been paying attention to Guns N' Roses lately? All the pictures and teasing will be the death of me. It's only seven days till the first concert in Vegas. Holy shit! I'm not even going to be there and I'm freaking out. It's been over twenty years. Welcome back to the jungle boys I'm so excited. Excited for them for doing this, excited to see what they play, excited to see who's the drummer because my money is on Adler and nothing would make me happier then Stevie and Izz joining as well. Come on it's been thirty years this reunion is probably because of the fact that Appetite is celebrating thirty years of fucking course Iz and Stevie have to be back too. Alright lets not go there again. There's actually something else that's been bothering me. I've been tearing my hair out over these stupid math exams. I've never been too bright when it comes to maths and I never will be. But I'm trying at least, doesn't that count for something? Thing is I'm an artist I'm going to an art school but still my math classes are insanely difficult and to be fair there's too many of them. Not to mention chemistry and other ''sciency'' classes. So I can't help but wonder why does the world work this way? Why are people who are talented for science and math treated differently then I am. I mean why is it okay to suck at art ''it's just not your thing'' but if you suck at math you're either stupid or not trying hard enough. This pisses me off so much. Math is also a talent. A talent not everyone has. So why is my ''gift'' worth less then theirs? How is that even fair? Why am I literally being forced to study like an idiot to pass math but science people aren't forced to take art classes because it's ''not their thing''. Lies. With practice and determination everyone can learn how to draw. Of course it's easier if you're talented but you can always learn if you want to. Didn't I learn maths? You have no idea how much this angers me. In that spirit, instead of ranting I'll go back to my drawings. I've got a ton of requests, Paul McCartney, Rhett Butler from Gone with the wind, Jon Snow *fuck yes* and the one I'm working on now, a wolf...in color. I don't usually draw animals, out of obvious reasons but this time I made an exception because I'm proving a point to myself that just becasue I don't want to doesn't mean I can't. In the mean time enjoy this finished portrait of John Lennon. I'm actually really happy with how it turned out and it also one of few drawings that took me this long. Almost twenty hours. I used B to B6 Faber Castell pencils, 0.5 technical pencil and a white ballpoint pen.

Guys just a heads up, don't take anything seriously today. It's April 1st. People will try to fuck around with you. I've been paying extra attention after a couple of people tried to play really rude jokes on me.

Anyways enjoy the weekend, to my fellow TWD fans, I hope you survive the finale, I know I'm as sure as fuck not ready for this. Christ.

Stay safe guys.