Todays post is a little different. And while I wanna write about this cute book I just finished…Omg you guys all the fluff! (Fluffy books? Seriously Nikki, the fuck is wrong with you?) Or complain about my shitty neighbors, because believe me that would be a whole damn novel on it's own. Seriously what the fuck is wrong with people lately?! I know I keep asking the same question, but just what, WHAT is the matter with them? Half of them must be walking around brain damaged or something, because I just can't imagine recent behaviour to be normal. And don't think I'm excluding myself, we all know my sanity is so so at best and my moral compass hasn't been pointing north in a while, but hell, I still have some breathing room before I go completely off the rails of a crazy train.
Point here is, those of you closer to me will know I've been working on a book. Yep a real book, not just complaining online. Book is in theory fiction, but in practice it's my insane life. Fake characters, based on real people and real events. Does that make sense? I guess I need a better outlet than a blog to process all that's been happening, and all I've been feeling. It's been a bit much to put it mildly. So todays post is a section from said book, also because it's the best way to type down the ''torture'' I was put through. I think some of you will know right away, why the character based on me has an exotic name (I almost wrote erotic lol) and who the hell Theo is. And if you're feeling generous, I'd love some feedback on my email. But take mercy on me please, I'm no writer and writing is so hard. And yes what you read down below, actually did happen, exactly as I wrote it.
Ares muttered, staring in between the man sitting on her left and the landscape outside, which offered no clues as to where they are headed.
''Oh you know, that little day trip I planned, last minute? It'll be fun I promise'' Theo replied, a huge smirk planted on his face as he took a right turn, taking them off the highway. He was being vague, and if past experience is anything to go by, this will not end up well.
''But it's 15 minutes pass 5, in the freaking morning'' a chuckle left his lips as he glanced her over, a deep scowl on her tired face and arms crossed in protest.
''I swear if you even try to pull some stunt on me again, I'm divorcing your ass''
''You can't divorce me if we're not married'' Theo said, that annoying smirk still permanently plastered on his face.
''Well…in advance, I'm divorcing you in advance'' Ares replied, eyeing the road up ahead suspiciously, as the car was slowing down till it came to a complete stop in a parking lot, overlooking a couple of buildings and a….tarmac? As she got out of the car she observed several planes that littered the sides of the airport, glistening in the morning light that just started to peek over the mountains in the back. Ares made a face scanning her eyes across every single one of the planes till her eyes landed on a specific one, parked closest to them. She knew that plane, she's seen that plane before, several times, she even sat inside that plane, but she never wanted to be in the air in that specific plane. Spinning on her heels she glared at the grinning man standing next to her, playing with his car keys. Looking absolutelly innocent, as if he didn't just drag her out of bed in the middle of the night to stand in the middle of an airfield with her.
''Why are we here? Why is THAT thing here?''
Instead of a reply to her question, Theo placed his arm on her lower back pushing her forward to the dark blue fighter beast, staring menacingly back at her.
''Don't make me call you by your full government name boy'' Ares hissed digging her heels in the tarmac and refusing to move any further.
''We my love, are getting over your silly fear today'' Theo finally replied and tried to pull her towards the jet once more.
''I'm sorry what? What did you say? Like hell we are'' Ares growled, turning around, scanning the path they just walked on towards the planes and the parking lot in the back. It wasn't that far, she could make it, if she made a run for it. He's probably faster than her but if she had a headstart…she could easily outrun him couldn't she? Perhaps. It's worth a try. She could tell the people in the parking lot he kidnapped her. She could tell them to drive her to freaking Mexico for all she cared.
''What kinda plane is that?'' Ares asked pointing at something at the side on the other end of the landing strip. Theo followed her line of sight, narrowing his eyes, trying to decide what was she looking at.
''Oh, that's a…'' his sentence was interrupted by crunching gravel, turning around he saw Ares sprinting down the pathway they just came on. Ridiculously fast for someone that just woke up, is not a morning person, and hasn't had her morning coffee yet. A laugh left his lips before he ran after her, easily catching her and grabbing her shoulders to stop her.
''Ares stop!'' she manages to get away from him a second time and runs in the opposite direction, towards the tarmac and around the plane, resulting in them chasing eachother around its wings, earning more than a couple odd glances from pilots and engineers, that littered the air hangar and tarmac.
''Don't you trust me?'' he asks, sounding almost offended at even suggesting such a thing. She gives him a venomous look. ''I'm sorry but have you met you? Of course I don't freaking trust you!'' another chuckle left his lips as he rounded the nose of the plane, effectively catching her and lifting her feet off the ground, throwing her over his shoulder as if she weighted nothing. He carried her towards the hangar to pick up their flight suits and helmets.
''Theo I am serious, put me down, I am not getting in that thing'' it was useless to argue, he always had it his way. And if he didn't they'd just end up chasing eachother around all day, which at this point sounded as a better option to spending the day. So what was Ares to do but suit up and follow him? God knows he would most likely drug her to get her in the air, should she not comply…on a second thought…
''I don't feel so good'' Ares muttered slowly stumbling behind him. To be fair, nerves really were making her stomach twist and turn uncomfortably and her palms were drenched in sweat, as was her brow. Theo glanced her up and down, a frown on his pretty face.
''Listen, you have to get over your fear someday and there's no time like the present'' he said, taking her hand in his and kissing her knuckles softly, as if that will calm her erratic thoughts and blood rushing through her ears. Glancing between him and the plane again, she sighed and let him pull her towards it with a resignated hiss. He was laughing the entire way to the plane, that smug bastard, and even had the audacity to enjoy the view as she climbed inside. It's not like it was her first time in a plane, or a fighter jet for that matter, but it's her first time in a plane with a maniac for a pilot. As he made sure to go about all his pre flight protocols, Ares glanced at the controls, switches and buttons inside the cockpit, her grandfathers words suddenly ringing in her head, ''they all come down somehow kid, nobody is ever left up in the air'' snorting silently she thought about the fact that she doesn't even have her last will and testimony written, and who would she even leave her valuables to in the first place? Well, ''valuables''. Theo would die laughing if he had a peak inside her head, and the thoughts swarming in there just now.
''Are you ready gorgeous?'' Theo asked a moment later, when he joined her inside and buckled them both in.
''What to die? Sure, I lived a good life'' Ares mumbled, trying to take a couple deeper breaths and calm her erratic heartbeat.
''So dramatic'' she heard Theo gasp over the sound of the canopy closing above their heads. A couple of words were exhanged between him and the tower, signaling to them that they are ready for take off. As the plane slowly rotated and started taxiing down the runway she felt her heart leap in her throat, and all the color drain from her face. Another slow turn brought them to the start of an endless looking runway, Theo flipped a couple switches and pushed a couple buttons, his left hand resting on the speed throtle. Launching the plane forward again, take off was slow, they were slowly gaining on speed, when the plane suddenly lost contact with the ground with several hundred feet of tarmac still ahead of them. They were barely 20 meters in the air and Ares didn't dare to open her eyes.
''You okay back there love?'' Theo asked while the plane was still climbing higher and higher in the air.
''No'' Ares muttered through gritted teeth, earning a soft chuckle in return. What is so funny? Just what? Her pain and suffering? Maybe he's just completely unhinged. That's it, she finally drove him crazy. That't the only explanation.
''We are about to reach our cruising altitude'' Theo muttered while still fiddling with controls and switches. Is it even safe to keep jerking those around in the air?
''The only thing you're about to reach is my nasty attitude'' Ares growled, trying to pry one eye open and look around them. A dozen fluffy white clouds floated around and above them, buzzing engine and Theos laughter filled her ears, as the fear subsided a little and she realized, so far so good. This wasn't so scary. As long as she remembers to never look down. Never look at the tiny houses, God knows how many meters below them.
''Look at those pretty trees and a creek up ahead'' Theo said pointing at something on the right side in the distance. Water shimmering in the orange sunlight of the sun that has barely completely risen.
''No thank you'' Ares replied without even bothering to look at what he was trying to show her.
''Alright then lets get closer'' Theo grumbled, same time as she felt the plane dropping from the sky, first a little and then completely, as if the engine has been shut down.
''THEODORE NO!'' Ares screamed, clawing her nails on the safety harness holding her in place as the plane took a sharp turn and lost altitude dramatically. He laughed loud, like a maniac she thought, or the freaking Joker, as they approached to whatever scenery he was observing earlier.
''See it now?''
''NO!'' Ares bit back, eyes shut tight. A dramatic sigh and the words ''okay then'' made her open her eyes just in time to realize, what her boyfriend was planning. Just as a tiny bubble of hope formed, making her think, maybe just maybe, he has some sanity left, the bubble was crushed.
''Don't you dare! Did you hear me?! Don't you fucking dare Theo I am divorcing your ass as soon as we land!''
''We are not married sweetheart'' Theo replied calmly, just in time when the plane flipped upside down. Ares screamed as her hands touched the canopy, the trees he was mentioning earlier seemed close enough for her to touch.
''See them now?'' Theo asked, giggling as the plane continiued to fly upside down for another thirty seconds, but then again it might have been a full hour.
''Oh my god you're insane, I swear you're deranged, this isn't normal! Please let me out!'' Ares muttered to herself, panting loudly as the plane leveled back up and flew a little bit higher.
''Should we land? Or do you wanna eject?'' Theo asked after a couple minutes and a fly around that brought them back to the area of the airport.
''Please for the love of everything holy land this beast and don't do anything stupid''
''Stupid? Like what? A barrel roll? Nose dive?''
''THEO NO!'' Ares screeched as the plane started spiraling seemingly out of control towards the ground. That's it, he's trying to kill us, he's actually trying to kill us, she thought as her hands covered her face. A minute later the plane straightened and the tower control sounded in her ears ''flight LF 365 you are free to land''. An exhausted sigh left her lips as she leaned back in her seat, the entire plane shook as it made contact with the tarmac, speed decreasing till it came to a complete stop. The canopy opened and a wave of fresh air hit them, cooling her burning skin. Theo got out first, tugging on the zipper of his flight suit and pulling off the sleeves, leaving him in a tight white tshirt. If she wasn't fuming with anger she'd admire how the suit looked, tied around his waist, giving her a full view of his inked up arms.
''Love? Is there a particular reason you're still in the plane? Wanna go up in the air again?'' Theo asked, making her eyes snap open in horror, she climbed out of the plane as fast as she could, lying on the tarmac, kissing the warm asphalt under her body. Loud chuckling was echoing all around her.
''Stop laughing you sociopath'' Ares muttered as she forced her exhausted body up on her feet and smacked Theo across his chest a couple times.
''It wasn't so bad was it?'' Theo asked tucking stray hairs behind her ears and fixing the loopsided shades on her face, if only to block the scowl and pure anger radiating from her eyes. Ares took a step back and leaned on the jet, honestly fearing her legs won't hold her up on their own.
''I hate you so much'' she muttered as she leaned forward, panting, trying to block out the dizzy feeling. Adrenaline slowly wearing out making her feel drained of all energy.
''Oh shut up you know you love me'' Theo protested, throwing both their helmets inside the plane.
''No, not today I don't'' Ares replied as she straightened back up, staring him down challengingly. That annoying smirk never left his face as he returned the gaze just as strongly.
''Are you at least a little bit less afraid of flying? Are we moving in the right direction?''
Ares thought about those questions for a while. Was she less afraid? Her grandfather would surely be ashamed of her. He would of love these planes. He would of loved flying them. Hell he would of loved Theo too. Sighing she pulled her shades off to look at him properly. He was patient, hands on his hips, gauging her reaction. Eyebrow slightly lifted and blue eyes shining in morning light.
''I could go back up…'' Ares started, watching his mouth twitch and form a grin that fell as soon as she finished the sentence.
''…just not with you. You are insane.''
''Fair enough'' Theo replied, a slight smile never leaving his face as they walked back to the hangar to change and leave the air field. Ares glanced back a couple of times, between the planes, the runway, Theo, the sky. She couldn't believe she actually did this, or better she couldn't believe she survived this.
''You know what this means though?''
''What?'' Theo asked, taking his car keys out of his pocket and opening the doors for her. Leaning on the frame he looked at her, noticing the color returning to her face, and the slight trembling of her hands.
''It means that now you have to do something you absolutely hate with me''
''Something like what?''
''I don't know. See Katy Perry in concert?'' Theo snorted.
''Love, you hate Katy Perry too.''
''I'll suck it up just to torment you'' Ares bit back, as he leaned over to buckle her seat belt and leave a quick kiss on her cheek. The idea of a sweet revenge made her instantly feel better. It's only fair. It's only fair he suffers like she suffers. The issue here though is that maybe it wasn't so bad. Maybe she didn't hate it so much. But he can never find that out. If he did, life with him would be unsufferable.
