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It's like an avalanche I feel myself go under...

''Cut me open and tell me what's inside. Diagnose me cause I can't keep wondering why. And no it's not a phase cause it happens all the time. Start over, check again, now tell me what you find. Cause I'm going out of frequency, can anyone respond?

It's like an avalanche, I feel myself go under, cause the weight of it's like hands around my neck. I never stood a chance, my heart is frozen over and I feel like I am treading on thin ice.''

                       

''Am I broken? What's the chance I will survive? Don't sugarcoat me, cause I feel like suicide, just give it to me straight cause I'm running out of time I need an antidote, now what can you prescribe?

It's like an avalanche, I feel myself go under cause the weight of it's like hands around my neck, I never stood a chance, my heart is frozen over and I feel like I am treading on thin ice and I'm going under...

I need a cure for me cause a square doesn't fit the circle, give me a remedy cause my head wasn't wired for this world.''

In the still of the night.

It just occured to me that I have to change the age in my profile. I can't say I'm all too excited about turning 25. I remember my plans from the past and get all frustrated when I realize what I wanted to do, where I wanted to be at 25 and seeing that not one of those plans came true. I mean that's what plans are for aren't they? To fall apart. Not that it's too late to make those things happen now, only maybe harder.

Not like birthday is the only reminder. Those of you that use Facebook, you know how sometimes there's that ''we care about your memories that you share here so maybe you'd like to be reminded...'' and then that ''2 years ago'' or whatever else. I had up to 8 years ago I think, anyways those are sometimes hard, or just annoying. Not all of the past is pretty. It makes me want to delete half of my facebook to be fair. I don't even know where I'm going with this. It's been a long couple of weeks, a lot of new, a lot of firsts, a lot of change. Some great some not so great. I still stand behind what I said that change is good but maybe at the moment I'm not the biggest fan of everything changing in my life.

Alright, another monday, I hate mondays lord knows I do, so instead of dwelling on it I'll put on a record and tell you some stuff about it...

I don't even remember when this romance started. I always liked Whitesnake, never particulary ''Guns N' Roses'' crazy about them but always loved them. Maybe it started when I first heard ''Is this love'', yes, I have a thing about rock ballads. Did you ever really listen to Cinderella's You don't know what you've got till it's gone? That raspy voice? It's so beautiful. Or GN'R's Don't cry? November rain? I mean I like my music loud but cmon, the ballads! Beautiful.

Anyways back to the point, did you know that this album is on the Rolling Stone's list of 50 greatest hair metal albums of all time? It seems completly insane to me, because to me, hair metal is Poison and Warrant and Cinderella *at the start, later on not so much, but we've been over that*. I guess despite the hair I never really thought of them as ''hair metal''. But I suppose it makes sense, this album is full on Bon Jovi, hah, the power ballads, the clothing change...you know the works. Real damn hot to be fair. Did you also know that the hit song of this record ''Here I go again'' is actually a re-make of their own song from the 1982 titled Saints and sinners? I mean can you imagine the song we know today, Here I go again, titled Saints and sinners? Seems so odd.

A friend once told me that Whitesnake name comes from, David's, you know...thingy? I mean does anyone know if that's true...or? I'd love to know. Hah.

So the European version of this album is actually a re-release of their American album. Small diffences but enough for a fan to notice. The track order for example, American version has ''Still of the night'' as an opening track which kinda makes the record flow better if you ask me. I think Still of the night is one of their best songs no matter what was released prior or later on. People are calling it a Led Zepp rip off, which is a debate I am not willing to go in to. American release also has two more songs *those bastards*, ''Looking for love'' being one, and ''You're gonna break my heart again'' being the second one. One an amazing power ballad and one a hard rocker, and I wish I had them both, hah.

People are saying that Coverdale was in a rut after the quick and huge success he had with Deep Purple. I mean I don't think Whitesnake got the attention it could from the get go, after they started out, they've spent what ten years in rather small venues all over Europe, things changed for them in 84 when Slide it in was released and American audience started to notice them. Which is why Coverdale got John Sykes *he used to work with Thin Lizzy for a short ammount of time* for the next album.

1987 or just ''Whitesnake'' in the States was and still is to this day Whitesnakes best selling album. It sold in about 8 million copies in the USA and the sales helped boosting the sales of Slide it in as well to double platinum.

In the American version I think ''Still of the night'' is one of the best openers, it's still one of the bands classics. The Led Zeppelin STYLE *not a rip off but a style, in a way Avenged Sevenfold are inspired by Metallica* serves up countless of amazing riffs, and it's a fantastic example of Coverdale's amazing throaty voice. The voice that maybe these days doesn't sound as amazing anymore. I love the raspy voice but it looks like he's struggling a bit. Props for not giving up, saw them live last year and it was great never the less. Not to mention that riff, goose bumps worthy.

''I should have known better than to let you go alone it's times like these I can't make it on my own. Wasted days, and sleepless nights an' I can't wait to see you again. I find I spend my time waiting on your call how can I tell you, babe, my back's against the wall. I need you by my side to tell me it's alright 'cause I don't think I can take anymore.

Is this love that I'm feeling? Is this the love that I've been searching for? Is this love or am I dreaming? This must be love 'cause it's really got a hold on me, a hold on me.''

Deep sigh. The 80's produced so many love songs and the way the world worked back then even the rockers turned kinda soft and released a rock ballad or two or a hundred, I'm looking at you Bon Jovi. I love Is this love, it just ''bleeds'' longing and love and passion and desperation and I guess some days I can really relate. It really is a beautiful song.

You know how I said that Whitesnake were supposed to be hair metal? Maybe. But I mean honestly to me I get this bluesy vibe simmilar to some ZZ Top songs. Hello? Walking in the shadow of Blues? Or like Crying in the rain? Whitesnakes all time greatest heavy blues song. I think blues really is the essence the very core of the bands sound, but maybe through the years they lost that vibe and went more...commercial? Which is maybe why this album was SO succsessfull but also cost them a number of long time loyal fans.

Now the concert. Don't even get me started on how happy I was that for once. Just once a rock band comes to play in this Narnia of a country I call home. The attendance was as expected. People in this country just don't know what music is. To me, a Whitesnake show is not just a random rock show but a chance to see one of the most iconic rock bands of all times, a chance to listen to some of the greatest rock songs, songs that inspired people over the last decades. It's really not just a random 80's hair metal band, it's a band that made a generation of musicians, songwriters, artists, metalheads, music lovers, hell groupies even. I only had the chance to see them this one time, but hey, maybe another time?

The venue was packed, though being a small venue that probably wasn't too hard and the anticipation actually was growing while we waited for them to come on stage. But hey the opening band was really cool. They are called ''The Answer'' they're a Northern Irish hard rock and blues rock band from Northern Ireland and the UK. Really cool guys. They really warmed up the crowd well for the guys. When they left the roadies came on, moving some amps and guitars and working on their finishing touches. Have I mentioned how much I love watching them work? I'd love being a roadie for some huge band like the Stones. Hey, go big or go home right? The lights went out, purple lights came on, the song mix stopped and we knew it was time for the band to come on.

David comes on stage like he owns is and to be fair he does. It was a short set. 14 songs. I don't know, either musicians like GN'R and the Boss and Bon Jovi spoiled me or this is just way too short for me. But as I said David's voice...I'm happy I even got to see them. The first song was ''Bad boys'' and his voice was great, despite all the issues it was strong and clear, not ''good'' like playback good but ''good'' as in real good. The classic ''Slide it in'' was second, hah, such kinky title but still one of my favorite songs and honestly, it sounded as good as it did back in the day. Guys these elder citizens can still fucking rock and blow the venues roof off.

Slide it in was followed by Love ain't no stranger and it was the first time the crowd really reacted. You know, screaming, heavy metal devil horns anywhere you looked. It's always funny looking at the ''sea'' of people on the ground if you're on the seating area *sometimes I like the view* they were all in black with beers in their hands. Hah. This time I stayed dry at least. Usually I end up under a beer shower, not a good thing being shorter then most at a rock show here. Anyways it makes me laugh looking at rockers, metalheads all in black, reminds me of a friend of mine who at a Motley Crue concert where admitedly I was all in black too told me ''how is the band going to see you in a sea of black? Wear fucking yellow next time, get the guitarist to see you and in ten years tell the story of your happy marriage to the press, all because he saw you in the crowd''. Hah. Romantic aint it?

It went on with songs such as The deeper the love, Fool for your loving, Slow an' easy, Crying in the rain, Is this love *I was all hearts and rainbows and cupcakes then, David was like ''Slovenia, is this love?'' and I was done for* and of course, Give me all your love and Here I go again. Amazing guitar, bass and drum solos too. They saved the biggest hit for the encore and I completly lost it when they came back one more time to a huge roar of the crowd for that one song. Know which one? Still of the night of course. Of course I was screaming along every line and the entire venue stood up.

It really was a true rock n roll show any way you look at it. For us, the fans it was a really great night, anyone who didn't like it, well they had to be lost. The rest, who aren't sure yet, I'm sure they were convinced too. I saw a dad that brought his 10 or 11 yearold son, said it was his very first concert. I was rather jealous. There is only one ''first one'' and I don't even remember mine, I was at concerts since I was around 2 years old. I know which concerts but obviously I don't remember. I remember them from like 6 years and on. The kid really loved the show, his dad bought him a band shirt and it was really cool. Parenting done right and all that.

David has this special charisma, he's a showman, the crowd loves him, he's charming, he's not a vocalist he's the vocalist, holds the crowd in the palm of his hand, they do what he asks them to. It's amazing. He's amazing, not everyone from the same era kept that status as one of the best frontmen and as charismatic too. It was a great show, hot summer night, cool people around me, beer, rock music, it was great.

To wrap up this post, the album is amazing, get it, listen to it, love it, it's one of the best 80's rock, metal, hair metal has to offer, and if you get the chance to see them live then you really should do it. If you like them, or metal, or old rock, or hair bands, or you know great music, life, or just having a great time then yeah, you really should go and if you don't like any of those things, well, hell, then just stay at home and watch a couple of idiots chasing a ball on TV or something. And I? Well I'll go get me a couple more of their albums, I can't believe this is the only Whitesnake vinyl I own. Shame on me.

Enjoy your Monday guys, I know it's hell, I know we all hate them, but try making it bearable with some good tunes. And for those in us in Europe, The Walking dead returns tonight, let's hope it's less brutal then the last season premiere or the Supernatural premiere. The feels! Stay strong guys I'll see you on the other side.

Dej vrn se k men.

''Don’t panic, no not yet. I know I’m the one you want to forget, cue all the love to leave my heart, it’s time for me to fall apart.

Now you’re gone, but I’ll be okay, your hot whiskey eyes, have fanned the flames, maybe I’ll burn a little brighter tonight let the fire breathe me back to life.

Baby, you were my picket fence I miss missing you now and then, chlorine kissed summer skin I miss missing you now and then. Sometimes before it gets better the darkness gets bigger the person that you’d take a bullet for is behind the trigger. Oh, we’re fading fast, I miss missing you now and then.''

Sometimes people would say that time heals all wounds, no it doesn't. Some wounds hurt too much, some are too hard to heal, some keep opening over and over again. Sometime they say everything is a life lesson. And what's the hardest lesson I had to learn? That life isn't fair? That losing someone you love is so damn hard it feels like it's going to split my heart apart? Maybe that when in doubt just take a small step, because even a hundred small steps are steps in the right direction. And if you don't know what direction you're supposed to go in? Or maybe that life is too short to spend it hating someone or being miserable? Maybe all of the above...

But you know what I hate most? When people say ''what doesn't kill you makes you stronger''. No. What doesn't kill you completly destroys you instead. Maybe someday when you're out of the storm you smile and say you're stronger because you survived but for the time being it's nothing short of hell.

Where am I going with this? Tomorrow it's going to be 3287 days since I last saw my best friend, and it's a day I'd rather not remember but it's fascinating what our brain remembers most vividly. All the awful painful things we could live without. It's been 9 years and I still can't believe it. It feels like yesterday and it hurts like yesterday. I mean yes, the pain is numb now, it doesn't feel like someone's tearing your chest apart anymore but it's still there, it never really goes away.

You're going to think I'm insane but I don't actually want the pain to go away completly because I am terrified that if it does I will forget. I will forget the little things that matter so much to me. Like that one summer night when we were out stalking a boy I liked with my dog and you were singing that song to me ''let me know when you come back to your senses'' saying that for someone so smart I am acting completly insane. Yeah, I know I was, though you had a laugh when he showed up with his dog and how we just like in 101 Dalmations cartoon got tangled in leashes and fell into the fountain. Good times. I can still hear you laugh and I never want to forget it. Or that little ice cream store where the owner always gave free vanilla ice cream to my dog and having our order ready before we even walked in when he saw us coming down the street. Or how about that one song that I hated, and to be honest I still hate it but when it comes on the radio I always turn up the volume and sing along because I feel like you're right here with me.

Ha, I remember how being sick meant staying in bed together eating crackers and watching Casper and Jurassic park probably twice in the same day, I'd tell you to get away from me before you get sick too but you never cared. Or oh god that one insane day in Vienna? Though I admit, that one I rather don't remember. I remember how you were the only one who gave me nothing but 100% support no matter what I did, what I wanted, what I wished. And that meant everything, having someone that believes in you no matter what. Which is why I was brave and bold and never afraid to reach for my dreams. I remember the first time standing on that stage, everyone said I could never do it, everyone said it's stupid a waste of time, that nobody will like us anyways and you had my back from day one ''believe while others are doubting'' remember? You told me in that backstage to ''stop fucking drinking that much you can't pee during the set'' ha ha ha. I remember when I lost a pet and I was so upset and I called you at 3 in the morning and you said ''whoever you are this better be important'' and all I said was ''sorry for waking you up'' and you said ''sit still I'll be right over''. And that was that. I miss that comfort, I miss your hugs, I miss someone that understands me this much.

I remember taking that ''midnight train going anywhere'' what was it 3 in the morning? And we took the first train out going God knows where. We had so much fun and I still can't believe we weren't caught. Our parents would kill us if they knew. I honestly still don't have the balls to tell them and it's been what 12 years? Hah.

It doesn't really feel it's been that long. Nine years? It feels it's been a year maybe. And sometimes it feels like centuries ago, sometimes it's like it's not real, like I'm going to wake up from a bad dream and you'll sit at the end of my bed giggling going ''let me guess Bon Jovi is an amazing kisser in your dreams?''. It's silly I know but sometimes it's nice to dream. Sometimes the memories are something I'm fond of and sometimes it gets too hard to even breathe. The easiest and most cliche way to put it is that a part of me died with you and the rest shattered into sharp tiny pieces and each time I try to put them together I cut myself. Sometimes getting out of bed and moving on and just taking a breath is hard. Sometimes the song that was playing when we kissed would come on the radio and it would be too much to handle.

Jesus Christ, life is not fair, I miss you so much it's driving me insane. I miss talking to you, I miss that person in my life that never judged me, never once called me stupid not even in a joking matter, the person that supported my craziest ideas and lord knows some of them were really insane. I don't want to be unfair to my friends now, they're amazing, I wouldn't be where I am without them, and I love them all, they're so patient and kind but there's just some things that can't be replaced. You can't be replaced. I am who I am today because of two people, one is you and one is Bruce Springsteen. But you were the one that encouraged me to be me to be original, to stand strong behind my beliefs, to never let people influence me or pretend to be something I'm not just to fit in. You inspired me to persue my dreams, my hopes, to keep drawing because one day I'll be amazing at it, to keep playing guitar because even Slash started somewhere. You told me that no matter what I can't let people take that light that I have, something about me that's so amazing, something I sometimes wonder if it was only visible to you...

And, God, I'm so sorry, so so sorry, for not living up to that one and only request you had. You told me that no matter what I can never change and that's exactly what I did and I'm really sorry. I don't know what happened. I got carried away. It's okay to not be okay right? This world is such a dark place sometimes and life is so hard sometimes but still I am really sorry. I don't love you less, I suppose I only love me less. But hey I'm trying, I'm doing things that would make you proud, I know they would.

There's so many things I wish I could tell you, about my life, about Matt getting married?! I can't believe it. I know what you're thinking ''what in the world?!'' ha. And that super cute guy at the bar? You know which one right? Of course you do I never stopped talking about him anyways. I know you'd have a fit over us dating. ''You really are a bikers daughter aren't you Nikki?'' hah. Remember that Kiss vinyl that you once broke by accident? I still don't know what happened but I got a new copy and played it about a hundred times, I know you loved it. This could go on forever, I have a ton to say, but, for now, I'll wipe the tears off my face and put a smile on it instead.

The truth is, I'm not okay and I won't be for a long while but that's okay because sometimes it's okay to not be okay. You can't keep it together every moment of every day and that's normal, you're only human after all. You're trying and that means more then anything. Sometimes I ask myself ''why the hell am I even doing all this, what's the point?'' and then I literally slap myself because I know when the going get's hard that's no reason to give up and I never did, though sometimes I wish I would. Just crawl back to bed, tell the whole world to fuck off and let me be.

I realized that being lost is alright too, ''not all those who wander are lost'' right? I realized that I can be surrounded by people, people I know and like even or people I never met and feel completly alone because honestly there's just one person that I want next to me. And it's okay to feel that way, sometimes life gets messy like this but that's okay. It's okay to miss someone and it doesn't matter if people around you don't understand it. Maybe they never had what you had, a friendship that amazing, a partner that loving, parents that amazing or even a pet that was such a great companion. I envy these people actually, they never lost someone that important to them so they just don't know the pain.

You know I'm not religious but that's the only thing connected to it that I wish, hope, want to believe is real. When people say ''they're in a better place'' that they're right.

I miss you baby, so much, every damn day, and I love you, just as much as I always did, sweet dreams, I'll come see you tomorrow to update you with all the drama in my life right now. I can almost see you roll your eyes at me right now. Ha.

''Sometimes, at night I let it get to me and sometimes, I'm sure it gets to all of us. And last night it had me down, I'm feeling numb. I can try, but sometimes that is not enough. No, sometimes that is not enough.

And stop calling me out, we're never going to put the pieces back together if you won't let me get better. And stop digging it up, or we're never gonna see it all in bloom.''

God, not Tom, and not today.

You belong among the wildflowers, you belong in a boat out at sea. You belong with your love on your arm, you belong somewhere you feel free.

Sound of silence.

In restless dreams I walked alone, narrow streets of cobblestone. ‘Neath the halo of a streetlamp I turned my collar to the cold and damp. When my eyes were stabbed by the flash of a neon light, that split the night and touched the sound of silence.

Disturbed - The sound of silence

This is my confession I need your heart in this depression.

My favorite song has always been Always by Bon Jovi. I guess I'm a romantic at heart. I love the lyrics. I love the song. I love Jon's voice. But that's just one song. There's other bands I love more, other albums I love more. Or at least equally. One of my top favorites being this one...

Now, some people are saying this is not Boss's best work. Let me tell you something. Those people are bloody idiots that are probably not even paying attention to the music. The very same people that probably don't get the point of the song ''Born in the U.S.A.'' let me give you a hint. It's not about blind patriotism.

Wrecking ball is amazing. His 17th album and it's the most confrontational album Bruce ever made. He is angry, he is mad, he's not afraid to pour all that into his music. He is painting a picture of his own country at the time *not that it's any better now*. A picture of America, drowning in lies, cheaters, profiteers...he goes into political affairs, he tackles hypocrisy, corruption and greed. He is exploring the working class territory, which is not hypocritical as some people say it is because if you'd know a bit about his past or even listen to his songs you'd know he knows a thing or two about economic frustrations. This album is this new ''Darkness on the edge of town'' that's gone way past the edge of town, to the heart of the people instead. Don't get me wrong though, good kind of darkness. I think for me this album brings back Nebraska, lives on the edge of collapsing, depression, frustration, same vibe, though of course this one is far more complex.

This is not the first time for Bruce to tackle such a topic of course, Nebraska aside, he's done it plenty of times. His fathers hard working life being an inspiration behind it no doubt. But this one is different. Angrier? Definately. Also more provocative I'd say. Did you notice the parallel between Death to my hometown and My hometown from the 84's Born in the U.S.A. A lot has changed huh? This albums is not just touching the topics I mentioned, this album is full on attacking them. From a point of a devastated man that's been betrayed too many times. ''If I had me a gun, I'd find the bastards and shoot 'em on sight'' in Jack of all trades speaks volumes.

"In America, there's a promise that gets made... called the American Dream, which is just the right to be able to live your life with some decency and dignity. But that dream is only true for a very, very, very few people. It seems if you weren't born in the right place or if you didn't come from the right town, or if you believed in something that was different from the next person, y'know..."

This is what he said, summing up...basically himself, all his music, everything. Searching for the American Dream that always seems to be just out of reach, specially during a time of unemployment and economic crisis. That was back in the 80's. So yea, Bruce has been there before. The two best songs on the album Wrecking ball and Land of hope and dreams were written with the full E street band in mind and they also feature the amazing Clarence Clemons who passed away in 2011. He was just another amazing talent that was gone too soon and we all miss him. Aparently the song Wrecking ball itself was written to pay tribute to a Giants Stadium where the Boss and E street band were the ones who played the venue's last concert before it was torn down in 2009. If you listen to the lyrics you can hear that ''I was raised outta steel here in the swamps of Jersey some misty years ago''. I guess it makes it emotional for the Boss because the stadium was build just about the same time as his career was taking of in the 70's. I guess it's pretty surreal to outlast a stadium?

Land of hope and dreams was written around the time when E street had a reunion tour. Late 90's. It's almost 7 minutes long and it blessed us with two solo's by the amazing Clarence. God I wish I had the chance to see him live. Though his nephew Jake Clemons who replaced him now in the E street band is just as amazing. I think this is just about the kindest thing the Boss could have done, given him the chance to play with them. This is a song with one of Bruce's favorite metaphores if you will. A train. A train that welcomes everyone, no matter what race, color, wealth, age. It's an ideal, a glimer of hope when you need it most and 40 years into Boss's career that's what he does, reminds us of what brings us together when every single little damn thing around us seems to be going against us. Corney? Maybe but the power the song like Land of hope and dreams holds is in it's ability to overcome that. To overcome cynicism. It now feels harder to do then ever. But honestly hard times will come and go, yet a song like this will last forever. It's always there to give you comfort when you need it most.

The album came out on election year and for that it's actually really bold. Going into what the true business of politics is such as responsible governing which let's be honest is completly fucked up right now, not just in America but all over the world. There is plenty of guilt to go around.

So the albums opening song is ''We take care of our own'', patriotic, rocker song. And also Bruce's frustration with the government. The lyrics itself speak volumes ''Wherever this flag is flown, we take care of our own'' a contrast to the rest of the verses with references to the havoc hurricane Katrina left and suggesting that obviously they did not take care of their own.

And then you've got my favorite song ''Death to my hometown''. I love that song, this cd played in the car a lot and each time it came on I turned the volume really high and howled along. Don't ask the weird looks I was getting on every single red light. Hah. I heard it live on both concerts I was at. Amazing moment. Amazing song. It's angry, it's a protest song about the practices of Wall street and economic crisis for which the Boss considers them accountable. What I love most is this Irish folk influence, Celtic tinged melody, and the vocals that sound almost like a battle march. Everything blends together so well.

Another one just like it is Shackled And Drawn, fast, powerful, an anthem against frustration and powerlessness. I can relate so much because I feel the same way, shackled, stuck in this place, in a life that no matter how hard I try, I can't change because there is nothing I can do about economy or politics. There is literally nothing I can do against certain things and they make me so angry. This is why I love the Boss. He understands, he's our voice, he says what the rest of us can't, or are too afraid to.

Then you've got songs such as Easy money with really charismatic vocals and Jack of all trades which is a ballad that was meant to encourage and inspire. Just a man assuring to the one he loves that no matter what he has to do he will, just so they can get by, though he's unsure and he knows bad things can happen ''we'll be alright''. I suppose eventually we will be.

I really admire him for putting on something like This depression. He's battled with it for years, sometimes it's better sometimes it's worse but it takes balls to bare your soul like that. Trust me I know. So I've got nothing but mad respect for the man for doing just that. It's a sad song yes but also beautiful, he never really displays this much vulnerability so doing that is a big deal. Not to mention Tom Morellos guitar work. Magic. As opposed to this song you've got You got it which is light and kinda bluesy and a cool song to put on, windows down and cruise. Alright maybe Dancing in the dark is better for that but you get the point.

Rocky ground...now that one is something else. The vocals, his vocals are right on point, slight gospel vibe and the rap part. Michelle Moore! Respect. It's unlike anything the Boss ever made but holy hell is it perfect or what, the song is absolutely captivating. First time I listened to it I was rather confused that's true but then when it grew on me I was hooked.

The last song, closing track is We are alive. It's a weird one not going to lie, but weird in a good way. Like the Addams family, they're completly bonkers but I'd still have them as my neighbors. Maybe have them adopt me, I doubt I can get any weirder so I'd fit right in. Ha. Anyways the song! It has a credited melody line from Cash's Ring of fire. The song is for the ghosts of the oppressed, protesters, immigrant workers..."I was killed in Maryland in 1877 when the railroad workers made their stand. I was killed in 1963 one Sunday morning in Birmingham, we are alive and though our bodies lie alone here in the dark our spirits rise to carry the fire and light the spark to stand shoulder to shoulder and heart to heart." beautiful.

So while we're on the topic of this album, dear Greg Kot who once wrote that Bruce's music is ''sterile'' and also that he "lost his nerve as a coproducer, going for stadium bombast instead of the unadorned grit these stories of hard times demand." Sincerly Greg, you're an idiot, this is a record with heart, it's right in your face, it's making you face the problems all around you that you're either to ignorant or too stagnant to see. And it's a beautiful tribute to Clarence who is ''too fucking big to die''. So I politely disagree with that statement. And so do the statistics, considering that this album debuted at number 1 in 16 different countries, making it his tenth number 1 album in America and tying him with Elvis Presley for third most sold number one albums of all time. At the moment only Jay Z and the Beatles have more number one albums. Let's not forget that President Obama *yes I refuse to call that...thing...president so do not dare and correct me* used the song We take care of our own as one of his top campaign songs, playing it in his re-election campaigns and of course playing it right after his victory speech on election night. It gave the song a boost in sales for over 400% too.

And of course the album and the single We take care of our own were nominated for three Grammy's. The Boss and the E street band preformed that night but didn't win because let's face it the Grammy's are not what they used to be, when artists such as Nicki Minaj and Justin Bieber get nominated and then actually win...well you know. Anyways Rolling Stone ranked this album the number one album of the year on their top 50 albums of 2012 and it went gold in UK, Switzerland, Portugal, France, Canada, Austria and Australia, and of course platinum in Finland, Germany, Ireland, Italy, Spain and Sweden.

Wrecking ball tour that promoted the record was Springsteens biggest tour, spreading over 26 countries and it made a whooping 340.6 million dollars in 124 shows all together. It was also the first time I saw him and one of my most precious memories. It was the most I paid for a ticket 105 fucking euros, holy hell, well GN'R topped that now, hah, point is, the most I paid for a ticket but so bloody worth it. He really does put any other young preformer to shame. 3+ hours of nothing but a rock n roll spectacle.

This album is not a 10 it's an 11. You really should get it and listen to it. It's powerful, it's angry, it's emotional, it's a rollercoaster and it's one hell of a ride. Seriously get it and treat it with love it deserves.