Stick to your guns.

So you want to be the big time some people have to drag you down. There's no living in the backseat if you're gonna drive through town. And when you pray for independence, boy, you better stand your ground.

You got to give it all you got now or you might get shot down, fight hard until the battle is won.

What would you guys say it's the best way to handle stress? By figuring out what's causing it? Alright. Done that but there's nothing I can do about it. I can't erase the thing that's causing it out of my life and I sure as hell can't currently make it better. By doing what you love to do? Okay...here's the problem due to so much stress and pressure I'm currently under I can't even enjoy the things I love anymore. I feel anxious and guilty if I drop the things I'm supposed to be doing for just one minute. By managing your time well? I've never been good at that. No matter how well I divide my time there's always too little of it. I swear days should have 34 hours for me to get everything done. I honestly envy the people who have their shit together and can get everything done and even get a full night of sleep after. By learning the difference between worrying and caring. “Worrying is an attempt to exert control over the future by thinking about it,” whereas caring is taking action...or so I heard. A psychologist wrote a fairly good example of this “If you are away from home for a week, you can worry about your houseplants every single day and still return home to find them brown and wilted. Worrying is not watering.” Stressing over things you can do nothing about is silly I know but how do you turn it off? I tend to worry about the stupidest things. Things that aren't even mine to worry about. It's easy to say you don't care, it's easy pretending while it's eating at you on the inside. Maybe you can reduce stress by embracing mistakes? Or at least if you stop suffocating yourself with perfectonism. I curse the artist in me because if things aren't perfect they aren't good enough for me and I hate that about myself. Mistakes are healthy, you learn from them and yet I do my very best to avoid them. Which is probably not the best thing I could be doing. Maybe I should just say fuck it and take a couple wrong turns? Maybe you're supposed to get lost sometimes. What do I know right? I was clearly not made to be an adult...

Maybe I should just stick to the only therapy I know works best...

This must be my favorite Bon Jovi album, I mean I like pretty much all of their music but New Jersey is my favorite. Slippery when wet is such a good record but this one...holy shit. I am so in love with Lay your hands on me as is but when you put this record on and it starts with that beat...if I close my eyes I feel like I'm back at the stadium and there's 60 000 people screaming with me. I can hear them, I can see the band, I get so lost in the memory. It's amazing. One of my fondest memories. Then you've got Bad medicine which is such a fun song ''hold on, wait a minute, I gotta do it again'' hah. And Torres is quite impressive on it. And then there's the classics like Born to be my baby and I'll be there for you and Living in sin. Such great songs to be honest. I don't even remember when I first started listening to this band. It's been years...it was always playing in my mothers car along with Guns n' Roses. And I always loved it. But I don't think Runaway was what really hooked me I think it was actually Living on a prayer. How cliche the bands biggest hit. I know. But despite everything Living on a prayer is an amazing song nobody can't deny that. I've seen them live twice and both times Living on a prayer though the last song was my favorite moment. Both times the fans did the song justice screaming it so loud I couldn't even hear the band anymore and it was such an amazing moment. Standing couple of meters away from the stage, with 60 000 people around you, screaming those lyrics as loud as they can back to the band...I can't put it into words what an amazing feeling that really is. The show in Milan was an amazing show, Jon was getting so much shit after Sambora left and I know at the end of the day it was toughest on him. He didn't just loose a band member but also a friend and people bitching at him and returning tickets on that tour really pissed me off. That's why I was so happy when Italy went above and beyond to show him the support he deserved. And I've seen the Boss and I've seen the Stones but Bon Jovi in Milan will remain my favorite gig forever. It was amazing. I love all the songs on this album, I love the biggest hits obviously but I gotta say my favorite song is Stick to your guns, putting Jon's cowboy obsession aside this song is perfect, it's about standing your ground, it's about not backing down even if you're scared and even if things get hard. Hell I'm about ready to give up many times, sometimes I'm tired, sometimes I had enough, and sometimes I just can't take it no more. But I never do. This might sound stupid but I don't give up because I don't want to disappoint my ''heroes''. The people I look up to. Hey it might be a dumb fucking reason but it keeps me going when things get hard. I guess at the end of the day my music does in fact inspire me to be better and to do better. What inspires you guys? Art? Poetry? Music? Love? Something else? Feel free to leave a comment or email me if you're shy. I'd love to hear it. Mondays suck and I wish I could have another weekend after the weekend to get some sleep but when was life ever that easy? Well have a good week, take care of one another, stay safe and I'll see you on friday!

Stick to your guns ain't nobody gonna hurt you, baby, you can go for the trigger but only if you have to. Aim from the heart some will love and some will curse you, baby, and you can go to war, but only if you have to.

Well, you know that I been through it I got the scars to prove it, fight hard and the Battle is yours.