All love is real

Sometimes she cries when she's alone at night. Sometimes she weeps, when she's feelin' cold and weak. Sometimes the pain, oh, it tears her up inside, sometimes she cries, oh, yeah.

Livin', lovin', give it everything you've got, after all the heartache, maybe give love just one more shot...

I don't believe in monday blues. Not in the hungover from the weekend nor in any other way. I aint fucking stressed and depressed because it's monday. I'm stressed and depressed because of life. Sometimes it's just too much. Sometimes the pain creeps up inside every single cell of your body and messes you up inside. Sometimes I get so fucked up that I get nothing done and the anxiety only gets worse because I'm stuck in one place, wasting time. I envy people who have their lives together. People who know what they want and how to get it. People who don't worry about what others have to say and people who don't understand anxiety, depression, lonliness, pain...I envy those people. But you know what they say right? You have to fight and never give up. ''You have so many options in life, never make giving up one of them''. And that is what I'm doing. I might get knocked down a couple times but I aint ready to give up just yet. And here's what helps me most at keeping sane and fighting the good fight...

You know Appetite is one of the best rock albums ever made, which of course makes it Guns n' roses best work. But I really love both Illusions I and II. I love how it starts with the ''quiet fury'' of Civil war. Then you have 14 years which I think sounds a bit like Dust n' bones, different sound but amazing none the less. It was written and sang by Izzy and I think it's a real masterpiece. Then there's Knocking on heavens door, I'm sorry to say this but I prefer their version over Dylan's anyday. I love it, I love the solo, I love Ax's voice I love everything about it. It is absolutely perfect. Then you got Locomotive...that song is just out of this world, Slash's riffs and Ax's powerful voice mixed together in that song. Fuck me it's too perfect to be real. I also love Estranged, 9 minutes of awesome. I love the solo, I love the lyrics, I love Ax's piano playing. I love everything about it. You could be mine? Fuck yea! It's fast, it's hard, it's heavy metal at it's finest. I love it. And lets not forget about Don't cry. It's one of my favorite songs, with the original lyrics that is but I love the ones on here as well. ''I know the things you wanted they're not what you have with all the people talkin' it's drivin' you mad. If I was standin' by you, how would you feel, knowing your love's decided and all love is real''. Ax is an amazing song writer, the lyrics are just beautiful and nobody would ever give them justice like his beautiful voice does. I wonder what Don't cry would sound like if they put the two together and made it a power ballad like November rain. Point is this album is epic. When you're down and out and ready to give the fuck up and you think all fucking hope is gone you don't throw your hands up and say fuck it. Oh no, you take this album and you put on the first song on side four and just enjoy it. It's blood it's guts it's anger it's fucking emotion. See thing is Nirvana fans were kinda the terrorists and liking Guns n' roses after 93' well my older readers know what that was like right? To the rest here's what I have to say, give it a shot and actually listen to what Ax is rambling about before you call the music mindless and heartless, close your eyes and feel that Les Paul, feel the notes Slash is hitting so perfectly. All in all it's an amazing album and if you own it you should be thankful to do so because it's what music it's about, it takes you on a serious journey, it's strong, it's emotional, it's perfect. Everything you'd want in an album. Now mine is a reprint obviously. I don't have the first print which kinda pisses me off but hey I'm gritting my teeth for a completly mint version. Hah. Here's the deal the original came with a sticker that I'm really missing on my version. It says ''this album contains language which some listeners may find objectionable. They can F?!* OFF and buy something from the New Age section.'' So Ax to say something like this. Hah. Anyways, enjoy the music, give it a shot, crank it up loud because that's how it deserves to be played.

Old at heart but I'm only 28 and I'm much too young to let love break my heart. Young at heart but it's getting much too late to find ourselves so far apart.

P.S. Let me just wish Happy birthday to one of the most amazing human beings on this planet, a man I love above all others, someone without who I wouldn't be who I am today or where I am today. Happy Birthday Pierre Bouvier, you're my rock, my happiness and my strenght, thank you for everything. I love you oh so much.