Hell is what you make it.

''This whole damn world can fall apart you'll be OK, follow your heart. You're in harm's way, I'm right behind now say you're mine.

Don't let go I feel the music in you. Fly high what's real can't die, you only get what you give, you're gonna get what you give don't give up, just don't be afraid to live.''

If you think I am not still moping around about AC DC in Austria last night you are highly mistaking. I would give anything to see Ax preform with them live. And that's saying something if you consider that I'm not even a fan of AC DC besides like a few songs. It had to be amazing. He is one of my top favorite singers on the planet. Not to mention he literally is one of the best vocalists on the planet...*deep sigh* oh well what's done is done. No point in drowning in self pitty now. Maybe I get the chance to see Ax real soon anyways. From this keyboard into god's ears haha. But you know nothing in life is easy so this is not the only ''dramatic'' thing I dealt with this week. My math problem is still alive and kicking my ass on a daily basis now on top of that I get another one. A design problem. Can you imagine I actually have problems with art? This one occured because I was supposed to use fancy pretty handwriting. Well I suck at those. I suck at any handwriting really. It starts with the problem of keeping the letters in a straight like on a blank paper and it goes from there. Why do we have printers and computers if not for that? Is there anyone out there writing invitations and posters in fucking curved bullshit handwriting like monotype corsiva? Really? Jesus christ. If you exist can you come save my ass and write some stuff down for me? Just like song lyrics and such. Bitch said poetry but let's pretend this is ''modern poerty''...hah. If I'm forced to do it I might as well write down lyrics that mean something to me. Ah the frustration. I am honestly getting fucking drunk to celebrate after I'm done with all of this. And a tattoo. Yeah sounds like a plan. Huge milestones should be celebrated right no?

You know what really pisses me off? I have so much art to do for school and I hate it. Absolutely hate it. They put you in a little box. You gotta do this, you gotta do that, and you have to do it excatly this way. There is no creative freedom. And I can't stand that. Art is about expressing yourself so how the hell can I express myself this way? And I hate it because it's not me at all. These projects, drawings, sketches are something I'd never do, things I'm not even good at. And I hate that I have no time for my actual art. I draw to relax, to get things of my mind, to forget, to get lost in my work and I absolutely hate that I can't do it right now. I feel like...I don't even know. Angry, frustrated, so done with everything and everyone. And I can't place it. I don't know why or what's making me feel this way. Maybe it's all the work, maybe it's the stress all this is causing. Maybe it's that things seem to always go wrong lately. Maybe it's everything. I'll personally thank all the saints there's alcohol and music on this planet. I am not sure where or what I'd be without it. There's no therapy like ''The Boss''. Can't wait for the actual therapy in July. Can't wait to be on that stadium again. Can't wait to hear 60 000 people screaming and singing along again. I crave that feeling. I crave that adrenaline. I crave that freedom. I crave that ''medicine''. ''I need a shot again, that sweet adrenaline''.

In the mean time, I managed to avoid any and all spoilers for the new Captain America movie, finally seeing it tomorrow. Can you believe how long I had to wait? Christ. That can't be healthy. But I'm super excited! Geek. I know.

Alright one last thing. I want to share a drawing I did recently. When I still had time...It god so much positive review you wouldn't believe. The funny part is it was actually just a quick sketch. I wasn't planning on drawing it out at all. I started it because I was bored, and I liked how it turned out so I decided to share but seriously my phone blew up with notifications. Hah. So I guess I'm real proud of this one not going to lie.

It's Steven Adler in case you haven't figured it out by now. Shocker huh? Alright. I'm going to put on some Skid Row and forget about the world for a bit. There's too much on my mind as is. Have a great weekend guys. Stay safe, party hard, forget about the world for a bit. Get lost somewhere. Have fun. It's healthy.