I feel a fire burning underneath my skin now that I breathe in I breathe you in.

Hysteria

Out of touch, out of reach yeah. You could try to get closer to me. I'm in luck, I'm in deep, yeah, hypnotized, I'm shakin' to my knees.

I gotta know tonight, if you're alone tonight. Can't stop this feeling, can't stop this fire.

Oh, I get hysterical, hysteria, oh can you feel it, do you believe it? It's such a magical mysteria, when you get that feelin', better start believin' 'cos it's a miracle, oh say you will, ooh babe, hysteria when you're near.

Not going to make this too long today. Been feeling like hell, headaches and shit and all I really want is tea, bed and tv shows, or maybe Jurassic world. Boyfriend bought me the dvd today. I'm a big fan and I've got all the previous ones he said the collection must be complete. He's the sweetest. So I've spent the day running around on errands. Despite the head pain it felt good having my mind busy and less time to think about things that don't matter. I met someone, an artist of some sort if you will. He was just like me. See's the world and people in it just like me and that felt nice. Talking to someone who understands for a change. Do y'all know people like that? People you don't have to explain yourself to because they just know? It's a nice feeling. Nice feeling knowing you're either not crazy or that there's other people just as crazy. Not sure which one is it but it's great non the less. I like people that are passionate about what they love just like I am. I feel like you can't do things halfway. You either love something or you don't but you don't do it halfway. I think people lack passion in everything they do really, their jobs, their relationships, their hobbies. And it's sad to see it. Nobody lives these days anymore they just simply survive. Guess that's what makes me different. Strange if you will. I refuse to follow the rules, obey, fall in line. I don't want to live my life in a rut. I want to live. I want to see the world. Try new, wild, crazy thing. Experience things. Be free. I don't want to be bound some place. Living for nothing but my job and family. Sounds like a proper nightmare. In that spirit, forget the tea and tv, I'll put on some glitter makeup, pour myself a Lemmy *that's official now, Jack and Coke are now a ''Lemmy''* play me my new vinyl that I got today and enjoy the night.

This one was on my top five most wanted list, oh guess that makes it a top four now. How about that. And I basically got it for free. Well it aint going to play by itself so I better move my butt off this couch.

Oh, since y'all asked for the step by step picture of my last Bowie work, here it is. I got to say I'm a little overwhelmed by the support and love this drawing got. Feels good. Stop it guys. I might get a big head now. Hah.

It's fucking friday night, go out, get a drink, relax, enjoy it, mondays come too soon. Take care of one another and good night.

Artist

I thought for a while what to write about. Not because I didn't know what to say but because I had too much to say. There's too many things I love and only so little words to describe how they make me feel. Sometimes I feel like I'm explaining what colors look like to someone who's been blind since birth. You know what I mean? Well some of you surely do. Anyways today's blog is in a way a request. I will anwser a couple of questions I got and never got around to respond. Sorry. You guys were wondering about my art. I got my talent from my father. His side of the family is the artistic one, painters, musicians, dancers, actors. You name it, there's at least one in the family. That's why I'm good at almost all of those things. I never got any professional ''training'' to be fair. I went to an art school as a kid but it wasn't a school as you'd imagine, we weren't learning we were just sitting around drawing, which explains why I got bored with it pretty quickly. I can sit around and draw at home, why pay an expensive tuition? I wanted to learn, I wanted to be challenged and I didn't get that there. All my talents are products of my own hard work. I taught myself by reading books, studying about artists, watching ''how to'' videos and practice of course. It wasn't as hard for me as it might be for other people since I was blessed with the talent in the first place, but what I'm trying to say is, everything is possible if you want it and work hard for it. I learned that by now. Dreams do come true you just have to be willing to work for them. I love drawing portraits most, all the artists I know hate that. They would draw anything, animals, cars, gardens, still life, anything to avoid drawing a face and I'm excatly the opposite. I love to draw a portrait, I love drawing eyes, I love drawing hair, the longer the better...I don't know why but for some reason I was never any good at drawing nature or architecture, I can draw a car, a bike, or maybe even a dog but nature, a city skyline, a horse maybe? Don't get me started on that one. Which by the way is a great challenge for me. Get better at drawing other things. Like a Japanese garden, they're my favorite by the way. Or maybe a pond with koi fish inside. Or a cat sitting out in the field with some moonlight or a wild sunrise behind. Colors are also not my best friend. I work best with graphite pencils B to 6B those make me happiest, I haven't grasped the whole concept of shading in color. I use three brands Koh I Noor, Faber Castell and Derwent. They're my favorites and work the best. Of course most of Derwent stuff are a little pricey but well worth the money. I always start a portrait with a quick sketch, just a ton of lines trying to capture the shape of the face, distance between eyes and nose, lips...then I draw the eyes, been trying to actually always draw the left side first because I'm right handed and if I draw the right side of the drawing first I always manage to smear the drawing somehow. After the eyes I draw out the nose and lips and face outline then shade it. I always leave the hair for the last specially if the hair is falling on the face, it's impossible shading between hair strands, specially if you draw in color, you just end up smearing the lines. Nothing more frustrating then ruining a perfectly good drawing with smeared lines. So! In that spirit enjoy my last drawing I did in color, one of the very few, as I said I don't like working in color but this particular picture was so beautiful it would be a crime to make it black and white. The lovely Chris Hemsworth in case you don't know, enjoy!