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''It's another day, wanna get away from here, there's a plane up on a runway, gonna run away from here, cause the rain is so terribly dull and it bores me, yeah misery adores me.''

I want to break out and get away, I want to just try and live for me cause if we don't try then we won't believe that we could've had it. I want to let go, and fall for you and when it gets rough, be your parachute, I want to do the things that you only read about, are you ready?''

He once told me, ''it's not your artworks that make you an artist but your ability to paint a smile on every face you come across, but just like every artist consoled with art because of a broken life, there's a twist to you too'' and I asked him, what my twist is. You know what he told me? ''You never paint a smile on yourself''.

Michelangelo said that the true work of art is but a shadow of the divine perfection. That's what he is, to me at least, divine perfection. And you know what it is that I love most about him? All those pieces he says are broken, all the tiny little things he says are wrong, ugly, meaningless, all the things he hates about himself, all the things other people hate about him, I just love them that much more. It's all a matter of perception, some see beauty some see a mess. All those little things make you you. Little imperfections, quirks and personality traits that are unique to each and everyone of us.

You know what the problem is? I fell in love with those cracked, broken, destroyed pieces of him and when he showed me the good side I fell even harder and quite honestly, right now, I don't think I'd survive the landing. Does that make sense? Do you guys know what I'm talking about?

Did you ever ask yourself why are we so fascinated with stories about vampires or werewolves falling in love with mortals? Or an angel falling in love with a human? The most normal, boring, ordinary human. Why are there so many works of fiction out there about super heroes and normal girls? Because we know that love is both a weakness and a strength, even the darkest, meanest, most twisted can feel love, can fall in love, get sweaty palms and go weak in the knee, well the Hulk probably can't but you get the point. And it's that idea that no matter what you're going through, who you are, where you are in life, love can still get in. And love is the only thing that can weaken you, make you vulnerable, make you breakable but also be the strongest force in your life, pushing you forward, giving you a reason to live. It was always love and it always will be love that's the driving force of everything, why do we do something? Why do we like certain music, movies, books? What we love, who we love? It's always love that can make a change in the world. Everything begins and ends with love. And to be fair it doesn't matter if you're broken, cracked, destroyed...just like light, love can get through the cracks and isn't that the most beautiful thing?

I don't know where I'm going with this, it's been a long hard week, so much has happened and the storm in my head doesn't seem to calm down. I have a ton of regrets and doubts and fears and what if's and questions. My fucking mind never shuts up, I worry about shit I shouldn't even worry about, nothing is alright. But in the middle of that storm there's just one thing that is as clear as the bright blue sky. Out of all the things I do regret and mistakes I've made. He wasn't one of them, and no matter how we go on from this point, no matter what happenes...

I will still love you, ástin mín.

''I'm done with small town politics, I need to make my way to where the action is, I'm done with it, so the question is are you coming with? Cause baby, if you like, I'll take you there, imagine all the places we could go to disappear, or we could turn the light off and go back to bed, stare at the stars at your ceiling and pretend that we're somewhere else.

I want to break out and get away, I want to just try and live for me, cause if we don't try then we won't believe that we could've had it. I want to let go, and fall for you and when it gets rough, be your parachute, I want to do the things that you only read about, are you ready?''